My tales, My stories...

2011-12-03T09:38:00.000+01:00

weeehuuu!!

it's already December aaaandd, I do not have any entries for 2011. heuhh..

so, here's one (^_~)

this is my fav song during last summer. the most beautiful summer of my life so far <3

oh, and yeah, the very first post as a married woman (^^,)v

My sweetie =)

2010-08-14T06:50:00.004+02:00

Home is nice and warm, or hot sometimes :P

The air-conditioner dries out my skin. hais.. I wonder how Syarafi can sleep in the cold temperature without a blanket. Budak kecik ni mengalahkan I pulak.. Sometimes I feel like I cannot stand the coldness from the air-cond. Aaa.. The freaking freezing winter in Prague is really a torture. =( (tiba2 teringat winter yang sangat hebat! aaa..)

I slept for 12 hours yesterday. At about 9 am or so, my youngest brother came into my room and made a sound, 'kok kerekk kokk'.. bunyi ayam kejut pagi2. Haiyo!!

Then this morning, he asked me, 'dah berapa hari kakak tak tido? ni bangun lambat' (x_x)

(did u not have sleep in days? why wake up so late) =P ! he said that with a very sweet face and soft voice, and had a very innocent look! hahaa.. I love him.

tp, oh, budak 4taun ni, nak kena ketuk kepala.. hahaa..

He wakes up really early in the morning. At about 7am, he's already up and energetic.

Oh, I remember the first day I got home, I arrived at about 12.30am that night. Syarafi woke up and stayed up until about 5 in the morning! Cool la u boy.

I think I learn alot from this young boy. Too many to mention.

Remember when we were young, the adults taught us the do's and don'ts, good things and bad things in life, how we should behave, etc~

But as we grow up, we forget all those values in life. And sometimes these little kids somehow teach us or remind us what we forget =)

There are blessings all around us. In everything that we see, every single thing that happens. Either in disguise, or they are right there before our eyes.

Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims (^^,)
Have a good day to non Muslims too!

May the future bring a brighter day, The end of our wait

2010-06-04T08:48:00.004+02:00

Salam and good day everyone ('',)

and Happy Friday to my Muslim friends.

I'm not good in any sorts of writing, so I'll just be sharing videos. ^^,

Look into my eyes
Tell me what ya see
U don't see a damn thing
Cuz u can't relate to me

U blinded by our differences
My life makes no sense to u
I'm the persecuted one
U the red, white and blue

Each day u wake in tranquility
No fears to cross your eyes
Each day I wake in gratitude
Thankin' God He let me rise

Ya worry 'bout your education
And the bills u have to pay
I worry 'bout my vulnerable life
And if I'll survive another day

Ya biggest fear is getting a ticket
As ya cruise your Cadillac
My fear is that the tank that's just left
Will turn around and come back

Yet do u know the truth of where ya money goes
Do u let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Has our world gone all blind
Yet do u know the truth of where ya money goes
Do u let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Some one tell me

Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

See I've known terror for quite some times
57 years so cruel
Terror breathes the air I breathe
It's the check point on my way to school

Terror is the robbery of my land
And the torture of my mother
The imprisonment of my innocent father
The bullet in my baby brother

The bulldozers and the tanks
The gasses and the guns
The bombs that fall outside my door
All due to your funds

You blame me for defending myself
Against the ways of my enemies
I'm terrorized in my own land
And I'm the terrorist

Yet do u know the truth of where ya money goes
Do u let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Has our world gone all blind
Yet do u know the truth of where ya money goes
Do u let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Some one tell me

Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

American do ya realize
That the taxes that u pay
Feed the forces that traumatize
My every living day

So if I won't be here tomorrow
It's written in my fate
May the future bring a brighter day
The end of our wait

Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

I have to admit that what is happening now in Palestine is a part of our fault - the Muslims, we ourselves.

We gave room for the Israeli to take advantage, and so they did.

And can we blame ourselves for not being strong?

Yes we can.

Because according to the history, we were once strong and we (our ancestors) did dominate the world.

If Salahuddin al-Ayyubi were to see that we are not being the successors to defend Baitul Maqdis that he once conquered,

he must be really, really disappointed.

The situation is unbearable.

May Allah bless all the people that have made an effort to bring peace once again to the sacred land.

In the name of humanity, every human deserves a shelter and a place call home.

Teeny tiny technical problem

2010-05-31T22:56:00.003+02:00

Dear friends,

I do not know what is wrong with the sidebar gadget, but somehow the 'My friends' thoughts' column has gone crazy. Only Yushah Latif's link seems to appear available.

(nak pulak yg tu lekat kat situ :P haha)

I've edited a few times, and I think I still have to work a bit more on it. *dush3..tumbuk the new layout for causing me to face this kind of problem*

OK, till later, have a good day everyone!

Salam 'aleyk..

You can't bargain with the truth.

2010-05-27T10:42:00.004+02:00

Salam and g'day everyone ^^,

Another video, from Yusuf Islam or formerly known as Cat Stevens.

He's one of my favs. His music is very relaxing and most importantly, that's how he conveys the message of peace. He's a very decent and polite man, I must say.

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're right or you're wrong
We're gonna know what you've done
We're going to see where you belong - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
Whether you are black or you're white
We're going to know who's right
We're going to see you in the light - in the end

O and every little thing you do
You'd better know it's coming back to you

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause one day you're gonna die
And good's going high,
And evil's going down - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
Whether you're old or young
We're going to see what you've done
There'll be nowhere else to run - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're rich or you're poor
You're going to meet at the same door;
You're going to know the real score - in the end

And if you want to help your fellow man
You better start with what is in your hand

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're right or you're wrong
We're going to know what you've done
We're going to see where you belong - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth;
'Cause if the world you chose
No further than your nose
Will be where the doors will close- in the end
You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause for those who were deceived
There'll be no reprieve
There'll be no time to believe - in the end

O and every little thing you do
You better know it's coming back to you

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause one day you're gonna die
And good's going high,
And evil's going down - in the end

p/s : the new layout is bothering me. ahh.. but haven't got time to change balu pnya.. just have to bear with for quite some time.

jaa ne!

p/s no.2 :: hah! succeeded to change the layout! =D re-edited 12.24pm.

yeay!

Dear Mommy

2010-05-14T16:43:00.007+02:00

Salam and g'day everyone ^^,

Thank you Mommy (^^,)

Thank you mommy for tidying up my room

Thank you for cold-sick cuddles

Thank you for letting me spill, 'coz it was just an accident (^__^)

my fav phrases from the video.

what a cute lil girl =)

She reminds me of my mom. A few random facts/stories about me and my mom =)

1.I remember when my mom cuddled me so tight while she's sleeping when I had fever, and then she had to bring me to the clinic in the middle of the night.

2.Mom loves to ask me to sleep in her arms. Even when I told her that I'm too big to be sleeping next to her. And she would tell Syarafi (my youngest brother) that I'm her baby, not him =)

3.Every Friday morning she would come into my room while I was still sleeping to sweep on the floor, and get rid of the garbage I had.

4.She would tell me stories about myself when I was tiny. She said I was a really chubby baby. She told me I was born on Monday, and I could walk when I was 10-month old, I could recite my ABC when I was 2 and a half, and how I took the carrots from the fridge and eat 'em raw.

5.She said I grow up so fast that it seems like I was born yesterday to her. And she even told me after 20, I won't be her baby anymore, that I would go to someone else and forget her.

6.She told me I got my chubby hands from her. (I told her that I blamed her for me being fat and short. haha..)

6.She told me to wear make-ups on my first date =)

7.She told me, among all of my friends and what not, she would only let Yushah drives her car.

8.She would call me on my mobile (while I was lazying in my room) just to tell me that dinner/lunch is ready.

9.She made a lot of sacrifices that I couldn't even mention or remember or notice.

She's being fun and sweet and supportive.

She's an enemy-turned-into-friend.

Despite all the fights we had, I would always cherish her, respect her, and love her, with everything that I have. Because I share half of my genes with her.

I might not be able to pay everything she did to me and my siblings, but I would surely try to be the best daughter for her. (err, lets make an exception with helping her with the house chores. hahaa~)

And also,

Thank you for loving me for-ever Mom!

I know it's a lil late to post sth about mother's day. but what to do, am not a real blogger =)

but I still wanna write sth about my beloved mommy

Have nice day!

p/s :: trying to write in red, coz it's my momma's fav colour =)

I wanna hear the angels sing =)

2010-01-26T12:33:00.005+01:00

Another song. I'm just a music lover, not really a good writer =D (referring to the very few posts where I actually spent time 'writing')

I'm a sing-along type of listener. I love country music most of the time. For example the ones from Shania Twain or Taylor Swift.

This is a cool song from a Muslim singer, perhaps not a famous one. But I just have to love the effort they put in making the video =)

So, enjoy~ (macam hosting a show pulak. haha :P)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the valley of the King
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels

Sing the praises of my Lord so far above
As I move poetically with the struggle I fall in love
I look to the left I look to the right and all I gaze upon
Reveals the source of flowers rainbows and the dew at dawn
Some see before and some see in and some see after
I let my sight pierce the chains and see the master

(Chorus)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the Valley of the King
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels sing

So many times in my life I ask myself the question
What got me brought me into all this mess I’m swimming in
But pain is not and neither harm in the pool of bliss
So slap me with your hand or kiss me with your softest kiss
Tell me that you love me or that you don’t like me now
Tell me you invite me or that you don’t want me around
I won’t cry over a world that can’t change my life
I’ll put my money on what lies ahead in paradise

(Chorus)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the Valley of the King
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels sing

I try to do right and love my wife and trade and pray and talk
I can be anywhere doing anything and I’m mindful of God
I’m pleased in good and happy in harm and now I realize that I already live in a land called paradise

(Chorus)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the valley of the king
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the valley of the king
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels sing

Cool dude! =D

2009-12-22T03:13:00.003+01:00

This is a cool video from a cool guy =D

I'm sure everyone will be stunned by his genius idea. I thot such a thing only existed in movies, or in labs. But he mentioned that he wanted to share this with the public. COoL~

Sure he can make a fortune out of this (^^,)

Hush lullaby

2009-08-27T21:29:00.003+02:00

Hush lil baby
Pure and small
He created you
He created us all

Hush lil baby
Don't you fear
Whenever alone
When Allah's so near

Hush lil baby
Breathing so calm
He'll protect us all
and keep us from harm

Hush lil baby
Still and serene
You're a muslim
Islam's ur deen

Say what you need to say, he said.

2009-08-21T04:53:00.002+02:00

agree to a certain extent.
been enjoying this song. I think the lyrics has a deep meaning (of which I do not know how to comment). I love listening to the music itself for this song. It sounds very light n easy.

Say - John Mayer.

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations

Say what you need to say [x8]

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only ...

Say what you need to say

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say

p/s : been enjoying music from Kina Grannis too - an indie artist, writes n sings her own songs =) pretty voice, very talented and yes, very beautiful too

A few merapu things?

2009-08-17T00:28:00.005+02:00

I think a few weeks ago, Yushah asked me, 'ade entry baru ke?'. I was like, gosh, I forgot that I have a blog olredy~ haiiss.. (already knew this is coming. haha. not a real blogger here.)

I'm glad that finally Nazli dah ade fesbuk. (reminds me of Razi yg lmbt jgk. haha..)
I missed her a lot. =( Lie~~~ (haha, saje bunyi syahdu sket)

I'm a loser when it comes to studies. See? Instead of studying, I'm here writing a merapu entry. =P

Next merapu point.

My mug is empty. m gonna go get a refill in a moment.

Back.

I do not know if there are things in life I really love doing, and GOOD at it. =( (what is my hidden talent? suddenly this question pops up? haha..allow me. today is my merapu day)

Sipped my milo.

If only I know what's wrong with my eye. have this weird thing in my right eye.

I wish I could be better at studying. (T_T) I always adore people who can really sit and focus!

I would like to have a lasic surgery if I could. I dont like wearing glasses. I might break them. (happened few times before).

I call people when I stressed out. I enjoy talking. Even tho I do not know much of what I'm talking about. (yea, might have some problems with my nervous system =P) I just need a companion sometimes. Lets jump to my name.

Wiki ::

Samira (In Arabic سميرة Samira; also Sameera) is a traditional feminine Arabic name. It is the feminine form of Samir, meaning "friend of the night" (most common), or "morning star" (high Arabic), or "human of the night". The name also means "pleasant companion".

The original name was Semiramis, the ancient queen with her hanging gardens.

Less commonly, Samira is also a Hindu name, derived from the Sanskrit word meaning "gust of wind", or "cool breeze".

(cant find the exact meaning to Syamira. I think my parents 'flavoured' the name abit. So that it sounds better? Even tho the Czechs keep calling me - Siamira).

So, that's the relation of the word 'companion', and, my name.
Ya know, the proffesors could ask anything in the exams. So isn't it good to just relate everything? Haha again.

Yes, so, that's quite long oredy~

Sleepy-head.

m gonna go back to my 2-inches-thick Guyton a.k.a the bible of physiology.

Sipped my milo again.

Ta ta fer now.

End of entry.

Life is Wonderful - Jason Mraz

2009-06-12T04:51:00.002+02:00

It takes a crane to build a crane
it takes two floors to make a storey
it takes an egg to make a hen
it takes a hen to make an egg

there is no end to what I’m saying

It takes a thought to make a word
and it takes some words to make an action
it takes some work to make it work
it takes some good to make it hurt
it takes some bad for satisfaction


la la la la la la la life is wonderful
ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
and it takes a day to make you yawn brother

it takes some old to make you young
it takes some cold to know the sun
it takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
but it takes you years to know what love is
and it takes some fears to make you trust

it takes those tears to make it rust
it takes the dust to have it polished (Yeah)

ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

ah la la la it is so (and it’s so)

It takes some silence to make sound
and it takes a loss before you found it
and it takes a road to go nowhere
it takes a toll to make you care
it takes a hole to make a mountain


ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

ah la la la la la
it is so wonderful
it is so meaningful
it is so wonderful
it is meaningful
it is wonderful
it is meaningful
it goes full circle
wonderful
meaningful
full circle

A blog award? Never heard of it~

2009-06-07T01:46:00.004+02:00

In the name of The Almighty...

Was tagged by 'Aliah a looong time ago. Didn't have time to, tp skrg rse nk buat la. takley nak study physio neyy~~
just had a cup of coffee, which will surely make my head go spinning tomolo~ so, here it goes =) 1. Copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda. -dah-

2. Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ini:
- 5? byk jgk tu. baru knal pn bdk ni =) I'll try, see how far I can go ;)

a) She is my best friend's good friend. (good is not enough i think. haha~) my best friend's consultant?? =P or my best friend's best fren?

b) She is of Dutch's descent.

c) She wants to go to Hungary some time in the future =)

d) I think she's someone who believes in herself, she believes in what she wants to do. She seems like it.

e) An outspoken person. I think she's a brave and strong girl =)
Maybe that's why my bf (best friend) is close to her.

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima ward seterusnya:
-byk jugek 10~
a) Coffee and I never get along well.
b) I love horse-riding because that's the time when I can feel my dad really loves me, and the horse. Actually I love seeing him with the animals, such an animal-lover. =) 'my ayah's macho time'. haha
c) I am afraid of cats. What more, dogs. I don't care when people say, kalo xsyg binatang mmg bukan org yg penyayang. Couldn't care less.
d) A needle-phobic. I read in an article, this can cause death. It is characterized by the vasovagal reflex (fainting). The heart can stop (blood pressure drops). Yea, that's what my aunt said after she withdrew my blood last time. She couldn't feel my pulse. Yea, fainted each and everytime I got an injection. Like never failed to faint? =P
e) I said I love blue & green. but I buy pink & purple stuff instead. Hate it.
f) I tend to hate things, when people I dont like, like them.
g) I seek revenge. If I cannot punch that person in the face, I'll go and punch the wall. Oucch!!
h) A messy-girl. Jatuh longkang in front of the crowds, laugh out very loud, meja study is a whole lotta mess, jatuhkan makanan stiap kali mkn. ( I don't have a spinocerebellar disease, do I?? na'uzubillah...)
i) A very picky person. I can go to the mall not buying anythin if I don't like them.
j) after writing all these, nothing in me I found interesting. =S
Can't I just write somethin positive about me?

4. Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka:
a) Zainab a.k.a Jane - penulis tetap blog. now I give somethin for u to write. ;P tag only 1 person, can aa??

Dreams.

2009-05-08T00:59:00.003+02:00

Bad dreams, they are here again.

Like they are always there. Shouldn't think much huh?

Sometimes dreams are not only meant for sleeping, that's what I always think.

For 2 years now, I think I have some problems with sleeping. We don't get along well.
Even tho I love to sleep.

Any help? =S

Not just another story =)

2009-05-06T07:52:00.003+02:00

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful...

Rusna shared these couple of vids from utube. MashaAllah...
I just had a very bad dream last night. Perhaps I shouldn't call it bad, maybe it's a warning dream. sebab da banyak sgt lagha kan... (T_T)
haihh....sometimes we stray along the way...
come on, get back on the right track!

Let's watch this funny vid by Brother Abu Bakr Ruben.
It made me laugh a lot, and almost shed my tears.
Reaaallly worth the watch. Please, watch this, =) (like begging, please, please....hehe)

Enjoy the show peeps!

It's funny how many times he said 'I'm a dead man'.
It's funny how he asked for the signs from God.

But these two really strike me right to the bottom of my heart. He said :
-while reading it (the Qur'an), it wasn't as I was reading a story, it was as I was reading someone commanding, someone giving me guidance.
-'For those of you who ask for signs, have We not shown you enough already. Look around you, look at the stars, look at the sun, look at water, these are the signs for people of knowledge.'

Subhanallah...

May Allah bless all of us, and show us the right path...

3 days altogether

2009-05-04T00:45:00.011+02:00

In the name of the Almighty...

waah, weekend yang sangat best. Let's summarize the events for the past 3 days =) started from Friday, to Sunday!

Friday:
Siang hari, dengan penuh jerit perih, otazký(the final exams answer scripts) dengan gagahnya cuba disiapkan, supaya malam yang best dapat dinikmati! hahaha....our GDO never failed to be entertaining!

ops, sebelah petang went to accompany Neby n Jenab beli adiah untuk speakers n for the winners for the Medical Career Day. Pening jugak nak pilih2 hadiah...adeh3...camana nak pilih hantaran nih...(hahahha, weyh berangan banyak). abaikan2...

'My Bloody Valentine' was a great movie =) the 3D effects rocked!!

yea, this cute, hot guy appeared to be a psycho?? life's never been perfect. so, okay.

Saturday:
It's the Medical Career Day. The programme was ok, loved it - especially the berlakun part. haha! People were hillarious, had a lot fun doing that too =D

the best part - we won! (haha, jadi nurse pun kira ok la kan.)
credit to the groupmates : Syifa, Aslina(the patient), Ijti, Ajohn(the husband), Mail(the intern), KB(the doctor), Hanif.
xsangka diorang2 nih terel belakun...geli usus dibueknyo

I was glad sbb the day before I went to beli those barang2 pemenang dgn Jenab n Neby. I joked, 'eh, biar aku pilih adiah tempat pertama. esok aku nak amek ni'. thank you Lord for granting my wish =)

Sunday: It's a bright sunny day, the weather was on our side. It was beautiful. =) We went for a boat ride. (tapi kayuh2). What a great day! sangat, sangat, sangat best main bot tu. Looking at those pics make me wanna smile over and over and over again! ! yeay! Alhamdulillah... 5 great people went together - Jenab, Zizi, As, Bob n Me =) sebab capasity satu boat adalah 4 org, jadi kami split kpd 2 boats =S walaupun niat di hati nak naik sume sama2, nampaknye, kne sewa speedboat la plak kalo nak. hua3.... tema wajib : swan kami yang gembira :

kaki yang tak berapa mengayuh: lepas tu kasut basah sket, selam dalam air. hahaha...I found water is very tempting. ;)
reaksi santai mereka =)

Helped Bob to capture some pics. walaupun xde la best sgt hasilnye. ahemmm...xde polarizer la katakan....hahaha....(my excuse) best jugak main jalan2 atas bot nih. seb baek x jatuh...life jacket pon tarakk...hahha....

Wasn't really the right moment to capture this duck flying. But you can see the water splash =)
Satu lagi experience best, tengok itik2 mendarat dengan machonya di atas sungai. Macam flight landing, tapi ni sangat2 macho. haa... Subhanallah...
tapi xsempat amek gambar, sbb mereka sangat cekap. =(

bumped into Nicoletta (right) - my classmate!! looks like she's enjoying her Sunday evening too =) nice Vltava!

Thanks people for a great, great day! saaaayyyyaanngg u guys! hik3...bak kata Jijimon, mcm family outing. hoyeah2...

oh ye, lupa plak, masa kayuh2 tu jumpe jenazah itik yang tersemadi jasadnye di tengah2 Vltava river. Poor itik. May she rest in peace....

Time nak mendarat, saya telah melakukan aksi-hampir-merbahaya yang boleh menyebabkan saya kelemasan. hahha...ape laaa....aiyoyooy....xpe, I love water anyway. haha! (now I can say this. mentang2 la tak jadi ape2)

Last but not least,
Beautiful evening in a beautiful place. Life's beautiful =)

BGT =)

2009-04-26T14:09:00.004+02:00

I usually do not like any reality shows, e.g Akademi Fantasia, Malaysian Idol, bla3...

but somehow I think Britain's Got Talent is somewhat different =) the contestants do not only sing. They can perform any talents they think they have, and the winner will have the chance to perform in front of the Queen. That sounds prestigious, isn't it?

Here are some of my favourites from this week's show =)

Notice when Simon was about to hit the button, and suddenly this beautiful voice comes out of Hollie. I think this part is funny. (^^,) Adorable, isn't she?

This one climbs to the top of my chart. They are really, really cool. Gosh, I can feel the hormone-rush(not sure which hormone tho, haha!) each time I watch this. Simon loved this as well. His approval is one of the hard ones to get. Cool, aren't they?

I also loved the performance from Shaheen Jafargholi from last week's show =)

From where you are - Lifehouse

2009-04-25T22:03:00.002+02:00

I dedicate this song to all people that I miss. (haha, like they are reading this).

Performed by Jason Wade, a member of a band named Lifehouse. Mr. Wade was inspired to write the song by the death of a 16-year-old friend in an auto accident.

so, here you go =)

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

sekian untuk hari ini =)

p/s : me happy Kelantan made it to finals. walaupun banyak mendengar anasir2 tidak best. hue3....it's ok, yokatta ne~ =)

Breathing - Lifehouse

2009-04-20T11:32:00.002+02:00

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to
Sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah...
Where I wanna be...

I am looking past the shadows
In my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one is you
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah...

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me, waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off of your table to the ground
La Da Da La Da Da Da Da Da
'Cause I just want to be here now

'Cause I am hanging on every word you're sayin'
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight, that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah...

-no title-

2009-04-19T16:05:00.002+02:00

I still remember my friend told me,

Sometimes you don't know what is the right thing to do

but you know what is not right.

Keep distractions at bay!

Impatient, I am.

yeah, life throws you curves. but you learned to swerve. Isn't it?

Weekend in München

2009-04-13T18:32:00.010+02:00

Roommates a.k.a travelmates =D
My akak sr a.k.a SyazZy WhaZzy yang rocks =D

Praise be to Allah... =)

waaahhh....
it was a great trip!
I love Legoland
I love BMW Museum (walaupun xsempat masuk T_T )
I love the Persian meal I had
I love the place we stayed in Munich

I wish I could go to Allianz Arena and watch the match =(

I wish I could buy some Bayern Munich's stuff
Olympia Park was super huge

English Garden was very peaceful and serene~ =)

I hate it that souvenirs shops close on weekends
I like Munich (^^,)v

As the seasons change

2009-04-05T00:04:00.002+02:00

In the name of The Almighty...

Hari ni dah masuk 5 April. The weather has become nice and lovely again. =) The season everyone likes. No more shivering cold, slippery walk, and green color seems to be everywhere. What a nice season. Spring is here! Bak kata orang kampung kat Prague, 'járo je tadý'!

BUT,

it means we only have 2months left before the exams start hitting us back again. waaa....
Spring and summer are supposed to be the seasons we enjoy the most. =(
Tapi kita kena selalu besyukur la kan? Be grateful for what is and what was. The future could not be foreseen, nor it could be foretold. So, berusaha je la kan? (The stressful season is coming back again so I need to prepare very well!)

Hari tu I chatted with a friend. Dia dah nak grad dah pun. Haha... Was happy for him =) He invited me to come to his graduation day this July. that would be lovely. he has a nice mum and sisters. if only I could go. tapi mcm tak boleh je. haha... we'll see how things go.

Kadang-kadang time tak teringat, jealous jugak tgk kawan2 dah nak grad. tp always be grateful. (^^,) orang kata time belaja rasa nak kerja cepat2, time kerja rasa nak belaja balik. so, seize the moment! ataupun orang latin kata, carpe momento!!

I was glad that I finished my Physiology test on Tuesday. (moga2 dapat result baik, amin...).
Because the hot korean series of Boys Over Flowers aired its last episode on Tues. hehe... so finally the story has ended. I am not really a huge fan but since I've watched Hana Yori Dango and Meteor Garden, so it is like a must-watch too. =P
but I love the soundtracks! really like most of them. XD

Ouh, and one more highlight of this week is about swimming. =D A couple of days before I talked to mum on Friday (I suppose), I dreamed of me swimming. Gosh, I have this crave for swimming for quite a while already. sampai termimpi2 pulak. Mum just got back from her trip to Indon. and she told me she bought me a muslimah swimming suit. waa~ I dunno what to say at that time. was overjoyed! =D I think that's what we call as mother and daughter chemistry. hik3... but that was not enough. I started thinking, even if I do have a swimming suit, berapa kali je pun nak swim kan. so tak berapa best la kan.
and then, on Friday's usrah with kak Alia, she told me that her muslim Czech woman told her that she has just got back from swimming. and she also offers if we wanna join them! they always go for swimming and book the whole swimming pool only for women!!!

waa....can't imagine how happy I was! syukran ya Allah... finally... =) so I'm thinking of telling my mum to send me that suit right away. heeee.....
it's been a while since I really have something that really makes me happy. thank you Lord.

this morning, (since it's 2am already right here) I'm thinking of going to see Barrack Obama delivering his speech. He has this 'Europe Tour' right now. and this will be the only time he will be giving his speech on this tour. I used to see him as someone who could bring the change to this pathetic world. but it seems like those remain dreams, since every now and then.

Also this week, I have been watching a lot videos on YouTube about Malaysia. how unintelligent and unprofessional, and inappropriate the so-called YBs. I grow hatred more on some people. haha! I have low tolerance for stupidity, dont tolerate it much. what more if that person is rude and shallow. I was so upset to see these kind of people 'leading' the country. Dirty people.

Ok, I think that's all for now. Banyak pulak tulis arini. haha...lama tak update. so like buat stock tulis banyak2. =P

nak tido da!

p/s : nak mimpi best2 lagi... \(^o^)/

Nazlie Rohani

2009-03-24T20:45:00.004+01:00

In a land not so far away, there lives a beautiful girl named Nazli. A warm, cute-looking girl (gile kipas budak nih), she is lucky because she is Syamira's best friend! haha! (ok, I'm the one who's lucky) =P

NAZLI AND ME (suddenly me too~):

1. Full name : Nazli binti Mohd Annuar.
I still remember the very first time tanya nama dia time kat Qber dulu, dia ckp nama dia Rohani. 'call me Datin Ro~'. erkk...

2. She is the third from 6. 2 elder brothers, 1 younger sister, 2 younger brothers.

3. The name Nazli was taken after a doctor's name. (her mom and mine sure got something in common - naming their daughters after a doctor's name. adeh3...)
tp makbul jgk, now she's studying to become a dentist =D

4. IC no. : 870325-03-5500! (similar IC no. we have here)

5. Fun and happy-go lucky type of girl. She always has funny stories to tell.
Kalo dia cite bab2 stress pun, lepas tu mesti gelak2 jgk. hahaha...this girl, really a 'rare species'.

6. Dia sanggup balik weekend dan ponteng program just sbb nak jumpa her old friend. =) this is the fact I like about her. I think I wanna go to UIA this year. and have Paih fetch me up. hehe! ops, it was Nazli's idea. I'm not the one bullying Faiz.

7. She already has a boyfriend. =( *melepas....*
we always tell this to each other,
nasib baek kau ni perempuan, kalau x da lama aku ngorat.
If I were born a guy, I would definitely have her as my girl! kui3...lesbo seyh~

8. We did have this childish promise of naming our first sons the same name.
mesti rasa nk tegelak2 ingat hal nih. xtau sekarang valid lagi ke x.

9. I don't need to tell her everything. SHE JUST KNEW!
I wonder how... =)

10. We loved to talk about the future. How sweet those times were.

11. We stayed up all night on the very last day of school. Esok pagi kat surau, masing2 'campak' Yassin kecik tu. ooppss...x sngaja...da ngantok sgt~

12. There were few times I burst out not only laugh, but also drinking water because of her. Tapi selalu mangsa org laen, bukan dia. hahahha! (she keeps reminding me of this. grrr)

13. She has a funny mother. Her mother once told her,
'Lie, kalu nok nikoh, tggu Syamira kelik dulu.' (Lie, kalo nak kawen, tggu Syamira balik dulu.)
=))
keep that promise yea!!

14. She means more than a world to me.

15. I never thot she would become my very best friend up until now. I miss her so much.

16. She loves to draw funny cartoons/caricatures. I'm a fan of her drawings =)

17. Kami selalu ada 'surat chenta'. \(^^,)/
Pengubat rindu jawuh2...

18. She is a consultant + friend + sister + psychologist + psychiatrist + teacher + bedmate+ SOULMATE!

19. There were times when we shared a bed with 3 people. Nazli, Mina and me. We're best friends =)
*tingat katil Qber yang kecik tu*

20. Mina and Nazli were born on the same month, March. Also, they are the third in the family. I have a tendency to be close to the third ones I think.

21. Kalo ckp dekat fon, there will be a lot of, 'ehemm...', 'ahemm...', 'ehh...', 'arrmmm'....etc. then my mum would go, what were you talking about on the phone like that?? =P haha, sure mum didnt understand. (mum loves to sneak)

22. She is my 'kawan melalak'. Duhh, what girlfriends are for kan? hehe

23. Her 'artwork',

24. Too much to say about her. Sarangheyo nazli-shi \(^^,)/

May God protect her from any harm, shower her with His blessings, joy and happiness, and grant her jannah in the life hereafter.

This video with the Jason Mraz's part took place in Prague. =)
Lucky to be coming home someday....wuuhhhuuuu...Bogoshippo!

Laksa Penang!

2009-03-21T19:47:00.002+01:00

Ops, telupe plak.

Jane, thanx for the laksa penang! or laksa kedah as u call it ;)

da makan da. shedappp!

waah, terasa amat spesel bila jane buatkan laksa kedah n agar2 pelangi tu.

KOMAPTA JANE! hehe...

sorry, smlm x sempat makan sbb da janji nak pegi dinner. tp bak kata jane jgk, peram lama sedap sket kan! =D

so, thank you again! mmuuuaaahhhh3

*hugs n kisses to zainab*

30th

2009-03-21T00:40:00.008+01:00

Sebagai menurut, titah perintah, duli incik tinggi Yushah bin Latif,
maka saya membuat 'koreksi' (correction) ini. *truk plak bunyiknye~* =P

Merujuk kepada entry dengan title 'Zutto, zutto, zutto best friend!',

item no 4,
his SPM candidate number wasn't TE013 B100, but it was TE013 B111.
hehe....sou-li! (eh tp sy jgk yg ingatkan) =P

item no 6,
tinggi dia da betambah 2 cm katenye sjak lepas spm. (blh x berenti meninggi??)

AND,

30. Dia tak suka teka teki. waahh...that makes 30facts about him! I should do a re-count =P kui3...

ade skali, Nazli asked, 'mu dekak siku yushah ko?' (kau tinggi paras siku yushah ke?)

then I was laughing really out loud. Nazli!!!

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

{one of his fav songs. tp I think best jgk lagu ni =)}

yesterday evening I went to a dinner with a friend. best la restaurant tu, ade live jazz lagii =D wuuuhhh....tpt cte korea Lovers in Prague belakon. best jgk la =))
tp I went for the dinner da pkul 10+ sket, sbb tggu k Syaz, lepas tu ade salah paham plak. adoyaii~~ (T_T)
but the dinner was great anyway (^^,)
saya yang lapar~
sbb b4 tu, ade test biochem. adeh...test di petang jumaat, lepas tu susa plak tu (T_T)... lapa lagii...haha, stress kjap... lpas tu, kul 10 br dinner. adoyaii.... what a day!

tp I like the drink bery2 much. It's a non-alcoholic cocktail named Miami. haa, the name itself sounds relaxing. atas tu ade buah2 yg mcm org besantai tepi beach, tp da makan b4 amek gbr. So I have a reason now to buy this drink again later on, sbb x smpat amek gbr ;)

sekian sahaja saya mereport utk kejadian smlm, dan juga mengedit entry yg kurang tepat. =)

ja ne!

p/s : semoga incik Yushah berjaya submit final projectnya dgn jayanya. moga Allah permudahkan urusan beliau. amin! (.^_^.)

S.E.M.P.U.R.N.A

2009-03-18T18:50:00.001+01:00

Tiba-lagu ni keluar masa I tgh dengar imeem, then I clicked repeat and then lagi I have fallen in love with it.
Anis has this as her ringtone, tp sekarang baru sedar how beautiful the song is \(^^,)/

*what's with the rojak bahasa~*

kau begitu sempurna,
di mata ku kau begitu indah,
kau membuat diriku kan slalu memujamu,

di setiap langkah ku,
ku kan slalu memikirkan dirimu,
tak bisa ku bayang kan,
hidup ku tanpa cintamu,

janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
takkan mampu menghadapi semua,
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa,

kau adalah darah,
kau adalah jantung,
kau hidup ku,
lenkapi diriku oh sayang ku
kau begitu sempurna....sempurna...

kau genggam tanganku,
saat diriku lemah
dan terjatuh
kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku...

ok, tu je!

Zutto, zutto, zutto, best friend!

2009-03-15T20:27:00.000+01:00

Happy birthday to Mohd Yushah bin Latif.

29 Facts about Yushah :

1. He was born on March 9th, 1987.

2. He is the 3rd from 6.

3. His IC no : 870309-29-5599.

4. His SPM candidate no : TE013 B100.

5. He doesn't like durian and honeydew.

6. His height is over 180cm. (182cm kut...hee) and his weight, erm, 80+ masa form5 dlu. haha...

7. He used to be the President of 5efficient.

8. He is from the family of architects.

9. He is an architect-to-be too =)

10. He is really good in drawing.

11. He is a very sweet person. He has strong memory! (super strong i tell u). yg ni kalo nk cite pjg la plak. huhu...

12. He is not so much into gadgets.

13. He did get a sijil kecemerlangan for his good result in add-maths ;)

14. His eyes are light-brown.

15. People did bring a khabar angin that his mother was a Spanish. kui3... maybe because he is too tall and at a first glance, he has this caucassian look. (ye ke?...org kata la...)

16. His ears can turn reallllyy red when he's shy. =D hik3...ktorg selalu kenakan dia sbb ni, especially teacher amy.

17. He is momma's son. ;) die akan ikut ape yang mama die ckp. bagus budak nih.

18. He loves to have 'solid-evidence' of his kenangans... haha... *only me n ushah know*

19. He wouldn't show any reactions unless you trigger him to.

20. He is a very simple person.

21. He can hardly get mad at people. mcm xpnh tgk je die marah... owh pnh skali dua kut tau die marah org. huhu... mmg penyabar abes la die nih.

22. His fav colour is blue.

23. Dia suka kambing =))

24. He used to be my 'consultant'. aheemmmm

25. He is the first person I ever played the birthday song for =D (with help from my Ashton)

26. Dia pernah tesilap wish birthday saya sebulan awal. Tapi he would even remember kalau saya '17thn 2bulan' and write it __ =D shhhh....

27. Dia super pengemas! katil dia tegang gile siyes~

28. Dia baik dgn ummi homeroom dia dlu, teacher zahurin. sbb, ehemm....

29. Dia kawan baik saya!!!! >> the fact I love the most. ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNX-N0TitNQ

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
-Tim McGraw

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."
- Anon

Excuse me!

2009-03-07T10:21:00.001+01:00

In the name of ALLAH...

Hurm, I do not know why was I soo ignorant the past. I didnt give a damn about this boycotting thingy.

Because for me, even if I don't buy their goods, others will still do it. and because we live in this country, there's not much of choices.

so this time, I really wanna say this out loud,
STOP PAYING FOR ISRAELS!!!

loud enough? NO? ok, I can repeat it once again,
STOP SUPPORTING MURDERERS!!!

Now I felt guilty for what I've done in the past. =( forgive me ya Allah... we live only once, and we'll be asked about our deeds in the life hereafter. Life's short, baby.

Kalau dulu, selalu buat excuse, 'ala...kalau boycott sampai menyusahkan diri buat ape...' well we just dont suffer enough like our brothers and sisters do. they are burnt alive!!! and you pay money so that you can pamper yourselves.

xde la pamper sangat pon....stakat beli burger McD yg menggemukkan (daging yang da lama gila awet), starbucks pnye drinks yg memang high in calories, coke yg blh buatkan infertility in men (artificial sweetener can affect the sperm production), and list goes very2 long....

so here's my call, lets stop being 'their' friend. because they have never been good friends.

ala kat czech mmg byk sgt2 barang dari Germany. dari Holland, Austria, Slovak pun ada byk jgk.

just don't close your eyes and be so rigid and ignorant. like I did (T_T)

don't just close your eyes and pretend to yourself as if you're not doing something bad

not an ignorant anymore,
-syamito-

Fuel injection

2009-03-06T00:36:00.000+01:00

In the name of THE ALMIGHTY...

saya tak tahu kenapa saya malas sangat2, sangat2 teramat2 minggu ni...
susanye nak ngadap buku jugak....
erm ngadap je boleh... =(
mcm kereta kering minyak itam (betul ke...)

blh x nak amek booster injection??
tak pon nak something buang semua toxine dalam badan.... heuhh....
are there any abnormalities in my enzymatic activites that my body doesnt work well? (T_T)

o ye, is it really true that if u take cheese/milk before sleep, u'll get a nightmare? to je pravda, no?

I always have nightmares... Gosh, I wanna sleep peacefully!! at least dreaming about me losing wieght wud be nice. hehe....
hurm, nak kata x baca doa sblum tdo da baca jgk... and I dont really take cheese or drink milk prior to my dreaming time.
I always dream about killing someone, sometimes very hard core scenes, like hentuk2 kepala orang kat kereta, mayat hidup balik, shot in the head/chest. or twist someone's head. am I really that scary? I really have horrible nightmares ever since I came to Prague. Why a???

not in a stable state,
-syamira-
*jauhilah aku dari gangguan syaitan yang direjam...*

whoott~

2009-03-02T20:26:00.000+01:00

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem...

What?? It's March oledi? aiyoyoyo...cepat sungguh masa berlalu yer.... time really does fly fast. aigoo~

This week ada test Biochemistry on Friday. I wasn't in mood to study during the weekend. =( aishh...but, lets don't waste time! =D *abes tulis blog ni sila study dengan bersungguh2, kata Syamira kepada dirinya.*

Something happened today, rather huge. Or I would say, it was at the edge of life-threatening, incident. whooott~~
tp all praise to God, that He always protects my family. I couldn't imagine what could have happened if it wasn't because of Him. THANK YOU GOD!

-Is it the sky, or the birds are smiling? I am smiling too =) -

*Dear Allah, please protect me and my family, my friends, teachers, the mujahideen, muslimeen and muslimat, and everyone in need. Shower Your blessings upon us, and guide us to the right path. It is to You, to whom we belong to. Ameen...*

And I also love this quote from Al-Qur'an, I do not remember exactly how, but it is interpreted like this,
Allah menguji kamu untuk melihat siapa di antara kamu yang benar imannya, dan siapa di antara kamu yang masih ragu-ragu. I think I can search for the exact verse next time =)

Till then, sayonara~

May God bless all of you

It's not good to sigh~ =)

2009-02-13T17:53:00.000+01:00

Bismisllahirrahmanirrahim...

Haa, da dekat 2bln x update blog nih. I knew this cud happen from the very first moment I started blogging. kui3... reading and writing, a couple of things that I reaallyy dont like doing. *sigh*.... eh x boleh mngeluh laa... xbaekk... =P

Drafts remain drafts... unposted... thot to finish them, but cudnt really find the time. (yelaa tuu...). nak update plak time exam... hua3...

Rusna baru masuk bilik ni, pastu dia bgtau kak Aini (sr ktorg kat Hradec Kralove) dah di'diagnosed' dgn anak laki. heee....tahniah! wpun x rapat ngn kak Aini, tp rse excited jgk. The boy will be the first baby of Malaysian students in Czech Republic inysaAllah. =) moga2 kak Aini dan baby dirahmati Allah sentiasa... besar pahala kak Aini. hehe... srunuk2!
Boleh bayangkan semorg kat Czech mesti nak gi melawat baby tu nanti. Untung jadi baby sulung ni kan. pastu dapat banyak2 hadiah... pastu semorg nak dukung... pastu semorg knal nama dia. uih, jauh la plak berangan. hobi saya ialah berangan. =P

Byk benda nak tulis sbnrnye. tp rasa besalah kalo duk lama2 kat blog ni. (kui3...kalo facebook xpe la plak. aigoo syamira...)

nway, satu lagi shocking news to me. It happened a few days ago when suddenly my sister told me that my great-grandma collapsed! my aunt first suspected she had a brain stroke. but Alhamdulillah it was only hypoglycemia. =) syukur2... cudnt imagine if anything bad happened to her and I'm still here, in the middle of my exam term. I always thot that losing her will be like losing my own mother. memang rapat teramat dgn moyang time kecik2 dulu. I loved spending the weekends kat rumah Nek. And we would go to the kebun together2, with my late great-grandpa (may he rest in peace), minum air kelapa muda, panjat pokok, kutip buah, naik motor pusing kampung, bakar pacat dgn tembakau, if the pacat dared to come and suck my sweet blood...buat sudu drpd kulit kelapa utk makan isi die... too many things when I spent too much time with them.

Everytime I got scared of my mum, or went into fight with her (selalu gaduh ngn mak time kecik2..hehe), I would go and find Nek. I would tell my father to send me to her house, and pick me up when the weekend's over. Pernah jgk smpai penat mama suruh balik, xnak balik jgk. Mum told me that when I was little, about 1year old or so, she couldn't find a babysitter/nanny to watch over me, so she asked Nek to babysit me. =) I'm glad that she was the one who took care of me. She took care of my mother, and also me when we were little. Practically, in a way, she's our 'Mother'. (my grandparents left my mum to my great-grandparents after they divorced). So I think that's why, deep inside, I could feel this very strong bond connecting me and her. I'm not ready to lose her. Not yet.

Kalo tido rumah Nek, my breakfast would be the delicious nasi kerabu, and Nek would have her favourite nasi dagang, beli dekat kedai Sauli. and she would have a glass of nescafe with that, plus anlene (as the substitute for creamer) for the added value, to keep her strong during the day. Nek, please be strong. Wait for me, I'll be back. Just wait for me.

I love to 'sakat' her sebab Nek suka sangat melatah. She had this funny character that we always loved to make fun of, by me and my uncle. There were times when I secretly followed her to the kedai and sakat dia depan makcik jual nasik tu. It was fun doing it. I hope I will still have the chance to see her melatah.

I know that it might be impossible for me to take care of her like she did to me, but I hope, I really really hope, I still can spend some time with her, and sleep by her side, and hug her, kiss her grey-hair, and tell her I will be coming back.

I don't cry a lot. But having thoughts of her, could really shed my tears, and I won't be able to stop it until a while.

This time entry is a bit long. I could go and on talking about people I love... this song is for her. sayang nek!!

When things don't come out right

2008-12-14T08:40:00.000+01:00

I don't really like what I've been thru for the past couple of weeks. I don't like these stupid problems. And I don't like ppl using the term 'friends' so lightly either. Some ppl can't just say, 'I always treat u as a friend...' or 'u're my friend...'.

One of my biggest weaknesseS (yea, have many) is, I don't really know how to choose the very right words, at the very right time. I can't. I'd rather say what I think, or what I feel because those words are 'right' for me. I'll stand my ground for what I think is right. I won't simply say things that will comfort others if they're not right for me. So sometimes, I just, better shut up. Not saying a thing is better for a person like me. Just don't force me to talk when I don't want to, because at that time, nothing will ever come right from my mouth. and I can't just say, 'Sorry, I slipped!'

p/s : well, I guess I better 'improvise' myself...living in this world is about getting around ppl too. my social skill, is soo damn weak. =( and I'll never be sorry. my bad.

Love Knows No Limit

2008-12-04T18:33:00.000+01:00

Here's a vid suggested from a friend of mine. I always thot this kinda thing only happens in the movies. huhu...
*even tho it's a very old video. but it's ok, that at least now I've found it! hee*

I am pretty sure this short clip will touch each and everyone of us, deeply =)

How amazing is God's love, now I wonder...

For every single moment You let me thru
I thank you
'cause it has made me the person that I am now
For every single person that I have in my life
I thank You
'cause that's how You teach me love
For everything that I have now
I really, thank You
You are my ONE, and ONLY GOD
I shall only serve You...
Thank You Allah,
with all my heart...

=) =) =)

*even tho I always said that I hate purple and pink, but I think I've started to like'em now. hoho... colors are God's blessings wut... =D*

Sweet Starbucks ;) or the ppl I should say

2008-11-23T14:36:00.000+01:00

Lepaking at starbucks at the moment, for nearly 5hrs now. Howoo... We already came here last nite, and the workers cud even remember us. hua3... Studying biochem has never been more fun ;P kui3... the abang working here is sooo laa nice. He greets us soo laa friendly, with that cheerful smile =D (ahemm...sesungguhnya ciptaan Tuhan itu indah...) Feel like wanna come here more often. ngeh3... gedix mode after muj mozek (my brain) has bcome a lil bit tepu. neeed a breeaakk.... desperately... got a test tomorrow, and on thurs as well.. huu.. didnt have time to enjoy my weekend this week (T_T).... almost half a dozen of tests in 3 weeks in a row... positive2... think positively pls... this is a training... cant complain of too much work, coz I've already chosen this path. =)

I also missed the chance to watch Madagascar 2!!! huuu.... m sooo gonna seek revenge for that. hahha... my blakang has sakit2 oredi due to looong 'studying hours'. kui3...

Physiology is interesting, yet scary.
Biochemistry is fun, yet unexpectable.
Genetics is trigerring, yet complicated.

The road is long, we're on stony ground...

Jaa ne!

Just Another Story

2008-11-19T01:28:00.001+01:00

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim... For the last a couple of days, after that 'motivational aka psycho talk' with kak mar, I felt somewhat different. I learn to forgive. I forgive myself. I forgive my past. And I felt, really, this feeling of somewhat, better, and more calm, deep down inside. People just cannot live with hatred and anger. That will just make life imperfect. I've read mimmi's blog just now, and the Quran verse just simply caught my eyes and touched my heart. Quran is so magical that it could touch people's hearts just everytime. =) curi this from mimmi. hehe...

" Dan janganlah orang-orang yang mempunyai kelebihan dan kelapangan di antara kamu bersumpah bahawa mereka (tidak) akan memberikan (bantuan) kepada kerabat(nya), orang-orang miskin dan orang-orang yang berhijrah di jalan Allah, dan hendaklah mereka MEMAAFKAN dan BERLAPANG DADA. Apakah kamu tidak suka bahawa Allah mengampunimu? Dan Allah Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang."
An-Nur : 22

Yea, berlapang dada. Lower ur blood pressure a lil bit. hehe... Always learn to forgive. Forgive people everytime u are about to go to bed. Some people might say, we can forgive but we can never forget. But I think, that is why we need to remind ourselves, each and everyday, every night before we sleep, we tell ourselves, we forgive them. It will work, eventually =) I believe it will. Everyone's a sinner. How do we know what we did to other people, were never more hideous than what they did to us? We never have a heart that is so pure, so lets just purify it, the best we could =D still have enough time babbling wpun esk ade test genetics. hehe... so, that means, i need to go!
miss this boy soo, very2 much. a pic of him a year ago. (even tho this time entry got nothin to do with this pic. hehe)

Happy Birthday to You

2008-11-04T00:40:00.000+01:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

I have a book opened in front of me right now but I'm soooo mengantoks that I've decided to write a blog. hee... Yesterday (Nov 3rd) was Syazni's and Syahiran's birthday. Yep, they share the same birthdate! Happy birthday to my sweet little boys =)

Looking at their pics makes me missing them more~~

A kurang sopan gambar of Syahiran(in red),together with Syamil (in white) during my previous bday party ;)

A 2 years old pic, during our siblings-day-out

That's all for today. Daa~

Keep on Movin!

2008-10-28T17:33:00.000+01:00

Nothin much I wanna share for this time entry, just a song I loved listening to when I was a kiddo. =) the music's nice, and the words are inspirational too. So, enjoy!

I woke up today with this feeling,
That better things are coming my way,
I bet the sunshine has a meaning,
And till nothing's gonna get in my way,

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying,
All the bees and birds are flying,
Never look oh you gotta hold on and
Not stop till the break of dawn and
Keep moving, don't stop rocking

Get on up, when you're down, baby
Take a good look aroud, I know it's not much,
But it's ok, Keep on moving on anyway,

Feels like I should be screaming
Trying'a get it through to my friends
Sometimes it feels that life has no meaning
But I know things'll be alright in the end

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying,
All the bees and birds are flying
Never look oh you gotta hold on and,
Not stop till the break of dawn and
Keep moving, don't stop rocking

Get on up, when you're down, baby
Take a good look around, I know it's not much,
But it's ok, keep on moving on anyway,

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying,
All the bees and birds are flying
Never look and you gotta hold on and
Not stop till the break of dawn and
Keep on moving don't stop rocking

Get on up, when you're down, baby
take a good look around I konw it's not much,
but it's ok, keep on moving on anyway.

Get on up (keep on moving, keep on moving, keep on moving...)

I know it's not much (keep on moving, keep on moving, keep on moving...)

Get on up (Keep on moving, keep on moving, Keep on moving

Keep on moving - Five

Lessons learned

2008-10-22T00:01:00.000+02:00

Everything that happens, must always have a good reason to it. I believe that. I really do. And this time I learn my lessons too.

I've been thinking a lot tonight. All this while, I have never realized, or perhaps I thot that I have before, but the fact is, I had not! I was so selfish. I only care about what I want. But I never gave anything in return. I was beyond stupid. I hope I am not anymore right now. I never really take good care of those who really cared for me. I barely see what they had done for me, up until now, I slowly opening up my eyes and see more clearly. I never appreciate those who were always around and be there for me. And right now, I think I really can differentiate those who have been sincere all this while, and who have not! Tonight's entry might be a bit emotional, but, be it. I couldn't care less. Perhaps when I look back at this entry in the future I will laugh. But now, let me just express every madness, every anger, every whatsoever that I have. I just couldn't sleep thinking about all these stupid matters.

I really hate this foolish world. Sometimes I do hate myself thinking about stupid things. haihhh... let'em out for once, and I won't think about'em later on anymore, I hope.

I miss those people who always treat me good, always listen to every single thing that I'm saying. I miss my good, no, GREAT friends! I'm a bit jealous right now, thinking that they already have new good friends... Perhaps before this God only shown me what is it like to have everyone good around me. And now He wants me to compare, how does it feel like when suddenly I cannot have those ppl anymore??

Mengembara Itu Jiwa Anak Muda

2008-10-19T00:10:00.000+02:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

We had a basketball practice this morning. We were super late as we woke up very late and we couldn't help ourselves as we went to bed very late last night.

And in the evening, I went to the ceramah by Mahfuz Omar. But I was really bad, that I fell asleep 10mins after the ceramah started. =( and I woke up really at the very end of the ceramah. huwuu.. But at the end of it, I was glad that at least, I still have something to pick up and bring back home =) (yeay!). It is this phrase :

'Mengembara itu Jiwa Anak Muda'

It sounds really catchy to me. He was right (this quote wasn't from Mahfuz Omar, but from a guy I can't remember the name of). We travel, so that we gain experiences. We patch everything up, every little bits n pieces and we make our own stories out of it. We learn things this way. We hear and listen. We see and observe. It's the experience that helps us to understand how life works. Life has never been fair, some people say. I don't really care whether life has been fair or not. But what matters the most it, how God has planned things for us, and how we let ourselves to strive and pass His tests.

It'll take the whole time in the world to understand the philosophy of life. And it takes more than that to understand what 'destiny' or 'fate' means. I really have blurry ideas about those two things. And I also heard people said it once, that those could never be understood. So I have come to a conclusion, that it is not our job to think about what has been fated. But our 'real' job is to open our hearts, let the nature takes its course, and see what we can do about it. It is like, in the examinations, the questions have been prepared, and our task is to answer the questions the best we can!

I love to think about this life in my free time. And most of the times I couldn't even find the answers to my questions, due to my shallow level of knowledge. I also can end up having a headache thinking about this. Aihh~~ But I really wanna travel and learn more. =)

Allahumma faqqihna fiddin, wa'allimna ta'weela...

That's all for today.
Jaa, mata ne (see u next time)

Ganbare ne!

Here's the song from 911-The Journey
911 - The Journey - 911

Time waits for no one, sure as the tide pulls the ocean
Sure as the path thats been chosen cannot be changed
In my lifes destination, I searched for the explanation
For some kind of reason for my sorrow and pain
But in my isolation, I learned to listen
To be thankful for the love that Id been given

This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn,
Ive laughed and cried as the road unwinds
This is my journey, and Ive learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up,
to bring my dreams alive

In my desperation, I swore never again
Would I hear all the laughter of my friends and my family
A million tears that Id cry & then began to dry
Silence of the night timeI i have come to realize
a sweet inspiration filled my horizon
Gave me the heart to go on and never would give in

This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn,
Ive laughed and cried as the road unwinds
This is my journey, and Ive learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up,
to bring my dreams alive

Im going to love each moment of every day and every night
Ill look back to the past with the sweetest smile
For now, I realize Ive been given the key to life
Ive been kissed by the angel by my side
Oh, yeah

This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn,
Ive laughed and cried as the road unwinds
This is my journey, and Ive learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up,
to bring my dreams alive

To bring my dreams alive
To bring my dreams alive

So I decided to write...

2008-10-15T02:52:00.000+02:00

In the name of Allah, The Mosst Gracious, The Most Merciful.

This is my first time writing such a post. Not thinking of any subjects, or topics in particular right now. I don't really know why at last I decided to have my own blog. I used to think it's just a trend to blog. I need not follow. And now I myself following the footsteps. I wasn't interested at the first time. I just, had been doing some re-thinking of the idea after my uncle some sort of 'urged' me to blog... He said it's cool to waste my time blogging. Haha... What an idea. But I really hope I will write up, or post things that are beneficial for others to read. \(^^,)/

I always tell people I am not good in writing, never good with words. Well, lets just give it a try. I hope I'll improve. =) I don't have much free time tho. It's pretty much tiring being a med student. Am not really whining about it right now. Just talking about what I'm going thru.

Done with the talking for this first trial. So, lets start blogging!
Yoroshiku onegaishimasu! =)