When things don't come out right

I don't really like what I've been thru for the past couple of weeks. I don't like these stupid problems. And I don't like ppl using the term 'friends' so lightly either. Some ppl can't just say, 'I always treat u as a friend...' or 'u're my friend...'.

One of my biggest weaknesseS (yea, have many) is, I don't really know how to choose the very right words, at the very right time. I can't. I'd rather say what I think, or what I feel because those words are 'right' for me. I'll stand my ground for what I think is right. I won't simply say things that will comfort others if they're not right for me. So sometimes, I just, better shut up. Not saying a thing is better for a person like me. Just don't force me to talk when I don't want to, because at that time, nothing will ever come right from my mouth. and I can't just say, 'Sorry, I slipped!'


p/s : well, I guess I better 'improvise' myself...living in this world is about getting around ppl too. my social skill, is soo damn weak. =( and I'll never be sorry. my bad.

Love Knows No Limit

Here's a vid suggested from a friend of mine. I always thot this kinda thing only happens in the movies. huhu...
*even tho it's a very old video. but it's ok, that at least now I've found it! hee*





I am pretty sure this short clip will touch each and everyone of us, deeply =)

How amazing is God's love, now I wonder...


For every single moment You let me thru
I thank you
'cause it has made me the person that I am now
For every single person that I have in my life
I thank You
'cause that's how You teach me love
For everything that I have now
I really, thank You
You are my ONE, and ONLY GOD
I shall only serve You...
Thank You Allah,
with all my heart...

=) =) =)

*even tho I always said that I hate purple and pink, but I think I've started to like'em now. hoho... colors are God's blessings wut... =D*

Sweet Starbucks ;) or the ppl I should say

Lepaking at starbucks at the moment, for nearly 5hrs now. Howoo... We already came here last nite, and the workers cud even remember us. hua3... Studying biochem has never been more fun ;P kui3... the abang working here is sooo laa nice. He greets us soo laa friendly, with that cheerful smile =D (ahemm...sesungguhnya ciptaan Tuhan itu indah...) Feel like wanna come here more often. ngeh3... gedix mode after muj mozek (my brain) has bcome a lil bit tepu. neeed a breeaakk.... desperately... got a test tomorrow, and on thurs as well.. huu.. didnt have time to enjoy my weekend this week (T_T).... almost half a dozen of tests in 3 weeks in a row... positive2... think positively pls... this is a training... cant complain of too much work, coz I've already chosen this path. =)

I also missed the chance to watch Madagascar 2!!! huuu.... m sooo gonna seek revenge for that. hahha... my blakang has sakit2 oredi due to looong 'studying hours'. kui3...


Physiology is interesting, yet scary.
Biochemistry is fun, yet unexpectable.
Genetics is trigerring, yet complicated.

The road is long, we're on stony ground...

Jaa ne!

Just Another Story

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim... For the last a couple of days, after that 'motivational aka psycho talk' with kak mar, I felt somewhat different. I learn to forgive. I forgive myself. I forgive my past. And I felt, really, this feeling of somewhat, better, and more calm, deep down inside. People just cannot live with hatred and anger. That will just make life imperfect. I've read mimmi's blog just now, and the Quran verse just simply caught my eyes and touched my heart. Quran is so magical that it could touch people's hearts just everytime. =) curi this from mimmi. hehe...

" Dan janganlah orang-orang yang mempunyai kelebihan dan kelapangan di antara kamu bersumpah bahawa mereka (tidak) akan memberikan (bantuan) kepada kerabat(nya), orang-orang miskin dan orang-orang yang berhijrah di jalan Allah, dan hendaklah mereka MEMAAFKAN dan BERLAPANG DADA. Apakah kamu tidak suka bahawa Allah mengampunimu? Dan Allah Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang."
An-Nur : 22


Yea, berlapang dada. Lower ur blood pressure a lil bit. hehe... Always learn to forgive. Forgive people everytime u are about to go to bed. Some people might say, we can forgive but we can never forget. But I think, that is why we need to remind ourselves, each and everyday, every night before we sleep, we tell ourselves, we forgive them. It will work, eventually =) I believe it will. Everyone's a sinner. How do we know what we did to other people, were never more hideous than what they did to us? We never have a heart that is so pure, so lets just purify it, the best we could =D still have enough time babbling wpun esk ade test genetics. hehe... so, that means, i need to go!
miss this boy soo, very2 much. a pic of him a year ago. (even tho this time entry got nothin to do with this pic. hehe)

Happy Birthday to You

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

I have a book opened in front of me right now but I'm soooo mengantoks that I've decided to write a blog. hee... Yesterday (Nov 3rd) was Syazni's and Syahiran's birthday. Yep, they share the same birthdate! Happy birthday to my sweet little boys =)

Looking at their pics makes me missing them more~~

A kurang sopan gambar of Syahiran(in red),together with Syamil (in white) during my previous bday party ;)


A 2 years old pic, during our siblings-day-out


That's all for today. Daa~

Keep on Movin!

Nothin much I wanna share for this time entry, just a song I loved listening to when I was a kiddo. =) the music's nice, and the words are inspirational too. So, enjoy!

I woke up today with this feeling,
That better things are coming my way,
I bet the sunshine has a meaning,
And till nothing's gonna get in my way,

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying,
All the bees and birds are flying,
Never look oh you gotta hold on and
Not stop till the break of dawn and
Keep moving, don't stop rocking


Get on up, when you're down, baby
Take a good look aroud, I know it's not much,
But it's ok, Keep on moving on anyway,


Feels like I should be screaming
Trying'a get it through to my friends
Sometimes it feels that life has no meaning
But I know things'll be alright in the end


When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying,
All the bees and birds are flying
Never look oh you gotta hold on and,
Not stop till the break of dawn and
Keep moving, don't stop rocking

Get on up, when you're down, baby
Take a good look around, I know it's not much,
But it's ok, keep on moving on anyway,


When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying,
All the bees and birds are flying
Never look and you gotta hold on and
Not stop till the break of dawn and
Keep on moving don't stop rocking


Get on up, when you're down, baby
take a good look around I konw it's not much,
but it's ok, keep on moving on anyway.

Get on up (keep on moving, keep on moving, keep on moving...)

I know it's not much (keep on moving, keep on moving, keep on moving...)

Get on up (Keep on moving, keep on moving, Keep on moving

Lessons learned

Everything that happens, must always have a good reason to it. I believe that. I really do. And this time I learn my lessons too.

I've been thinking a lot tonight. All this while, I have never realized, or perhaps I thot that I have before, but the fact is, I had not! I was so selfish. I only care about what I want. But I never gave anything in return. I was beyond stupid. I hope I am not anymore right now. I never really take good care of those who really cared for me. I barely see what they had done for me, up until now, I slowly opening up my eyes and see more clearly. I never appreciate those who were always around and be there for me. And right now, I think I really can differentiate those who have been sincere all this while, and who have not! Tonight's entry might be a bit emotional, but, be it. I couldn't care less. Perhaps when I look back at this entry in the future I will laugh. But now, let me just express every madness, every anger, every whatsoever that I have. I just couldn't sleep thinking about all these stupid matters.

I really hate this foolish world. Sometimes I do hate myself thinking about stupid things. haihhh... let'em out for once, and I won't think about'em later on anymore, I hope.

I miss those people who always treat me good, always listen to every single thing that I'm saying. I miss my good, no, GREAT friends! I'm a bit jealous right now, thinking that they already have new good friends... Perhaps before this God only shown me what is it like to have everyone good around me. And now He wants me to compare, how does it feel like when suddenly I cannot have those ppl anymore??