whoott~

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem...

What?? It's March oledi? aiyoyoyo...cepat sungguh masa berlalu yer.... time really does fly fast. aigoo~

This week ada test Biochemistry on Friday. I wasn't in mood to study during the weekend. =( aishh...but, lets don't waste time! =D *abes tulis blog ni sila study dengan bersungguh2, kata Syamira kepada dirinya.*

Something happened today, rather huge. Or I would say, it was at the edge of life-threatening, incident. whooott~~
tp all praise to God, that He always protects my family. I couldn't imagine what could have happened if it wasn't because of Him. THANK YOU GOD!


-Is it the sky, or the birds are smiling? I am smiling too =) -


*Dear Allah, please protect me and my family, my friends, teachers, the mujahideen, muslimeen and muslimat, and everyone in need. Shower Your blessings upon us, and guide us to the right path. It is to You, to whom we belong to. Ameen...*

And I also love this quote from Al-Qur'an, I do not remember exactly how, but it is interpreted like this,
Allah menguji kamu untuk melihat siapa di antara kamu yang benar imannya, dan siapa di antara kamu yang masih ragu-ragu. I think I can search for the exact verse next time =)



Till then, sayonara~

May God bless all of you

It's not good to sigh~ =)

Bismisllahirrahmanirrahim...

Haa, da dekat 2bln x update blog nih. I knew this cud happen from the very first moment I started blogging. kui3... reading and writing, a couple of things that I reaallyy dont like doing. *sigh*.... eh x boleh mngeluh laa... xbaekk... =P

Drafts remain drafts... unposted... thot to finish them, but cudnt really find the time. (yelaa tuu...). nak update plak time exam... hua3...

Rusna baru masuk bilik ni, pastu dia bgtau kak Aini (sr ktorg kat Hradec Kralove) dah di'diagnosed' dgn anak laki. heee....tahniah! wpun x rapat ngn kak Aini, tp rse excited jgk. The boy will be the first baby of Malaysian students in Czech Republic inysaAllah. =) moga2 kak Aini dan baby dirahmati Allah sentiasa... besar pahala kak Aini. hehe... srunuk2!
Boleh bayangkan semorg kat Czech mesti nak gi melawat baby tu nanti. Untung jadi baby sulung ni kan. pastu dapat banyak2 hadiah... pastu semorg nak dukung... pastu semorg knal nama dia. uih, jauh la plak berangan. hobi saya ialah berangan. =P

Byk benda nak tulis sbnrnye. tp rasa besalah kalo duk lama2 kat blog ni. (kui3...kalo facebook xpe la plak. aigoo syamira...)

nway, satu lagi shocking news to me. It happened a few days ago when suddenly my sister told me that my great-grandma collapsed! my aunt first suspected she had a brain stroke. but Alhamdulillah it was only hypoglycemia. =) syukur2... cudnt imagine if anything bad happened to her and I'm still here, in the middle of my exam term. I always thot that losing her will be like losing my own mother. memang rapat teramat dgn moyang time kecik2 dulu. I loved spending the weekends kat rumah Nek. And we would go to the kebun together2, with my late great-grandpa (may he rest in peace), minum air kelapa muda, panjat pokok, kutip buah, naik motor pusing kampung, bakar pacat dgn tembakau, if the pacat dared to come and suck my sweet blood...buat sudu drpd kulit kelapa utk makan isi die... too many things when I spent too much time with them.

Everytime I got scared of my mum, or went into fight with her (selalu gaduh ngn mak time kecik2..hehe), I would go and find Nek. I would tell my father to send me to her house, and pick me up when the weekend's over. Pernah jgk smpai penat mama suruh balik, xnak balik jgk. Mum told me that when I was little, about 1year old or so, she couldn't find a babysitter/nanny to watch over me, so she asked Nek to babysit me. =) I'm glad that she was the one who took care of me. She took care of my mother, and also me when we were little. Practically, in a way, she's our 'Mother'. (my grandparents left my mum to my great-grandparents after they divorced). So I think that's why, deep inside, I could feel this very strong bond connecting me and her. I'm not ready to lose her. Not yet.

Kalo tido rumah Nek, my breakfast would be the delicious nasi kerabu, and Nek would have her favourite nasi dagang, beli dekat kedai Sauli. and she would have a glass of nescafe with that, plus anlene (as the substitute for creamer) for the added value, to keep her strong during the day. Nek, please be strong. Wait for me, I'll be back. Just wait for me.

I love to 'sakat' her sebab Nek suka sangat melatah. She had this funny character that we always loved to make fun of, by me and my uncle. There were times when I secretly followed her to the kedai and sakat dia depan makcik jual nasik tu. It was fun doing it. I hope I will still have the chance to see her melatah.

I know that it might be impossible for me to take care of her like she did to me, but I hope, I really really hope, I still can spend some time with her, and sleep by her side, and hug her, kiss her grey-hair, and tell her I will be coming back.

I don't cry a lot. But having thoughts of her, could really shed my tears, and I won't be able to stop it until a while.





This time entry is a bit long. I could go and on talking about people I love... this song is for her. sayang nek!!

When things don't come out right

I don't really like what I've been thru for the past couple of weeks. I don't like these stupid problems. And I don't like ppl using the term 'friends' so lightly either. Some ppl can't just say, 'I always treat u as a friend...' or 'u're my friend...'.

One of my biggest weaknesseS (yea, have many) is, I don't really know how to choose the very right words, at the very right time. I can't. I'd rather say what I think, or what I feel because those words are 'right' for me. I'll stand my ground for what I think is right. I won't simply say things that will comfort others if they're not right for me. So sometimes, I just, better shut up. Not saying a thing is better for a person like me. Just don't force me to talk when I don't want to, because at that time, nothing will ever come right from my mouth. and I can't just say, 'Sorry, I slipped!'


p/s : well, I guess I better 'improvise' myself...living in this world is about getting around ppl too. my social skill, is soo damn weak. =( and I'll never be sorry. my bad.

Love Knows No Limit

Here's a vid suggested from a friend of mine. I always thot this kinda thing only happens in the movies. huhu...
*even tho it's a very old video. but it's ok, that at least now I've found it! hee*





I am pretty sure this short clip will touch each and everyone of us, deeply =)

How amazing is God's love, now I wonder...


For every single moment You let me thru
I thank you
'cause it has made me the person that I am now
For every single person that I have in my life
I thank You
'cause that's how You teach me love
For everything that I have now
I really, thank You
You are my ONE, and ONLY GOD
I shall only serve You...
Thank You Allah,
with all my heart...

=) =) =)

*even tho I always said that I hate purple and pink, but I think I've started to like'em now. hoho... colors are God's blessings wut... =D*

Sweet Starbucks ;) or the ppl I should say

Lepaking at starbucks at the moment, for nearly 5hrs now. Howoo... We already came here last nite, and the workers cud even remember us. hua3... Studying biochem has never been more fun ;P kui3... the abang working here is sooo laa nice. He greets us soo laa friendly, with that cheerful smile =D (ahemm...sesungguhnya ciptaan Tuhan itu indah...) Feel like wanna come here more often. ngeh3... gedix mode after muj mozek (my brain) has bcome a lil bit tepu. neeed a breeaakk.... desperately... got a test tomorrow, and on thurs as well.. huu.. didnt have time to enjoy my weekend this week (T_T).... almost half a dozen of tests in 3 weeks in a row... positive2... think positively pls... this is a training... cant complain of too much work, coz I've already chosen this path. =)

I also missed the chance to watch Madagascar 2!!! huuu.... m sooo gonna seek revenge for that. hahha... my blakang has sakit2 oredi due to looong 'studying hours'. kui3...


Physiology is interesting, yet scary.
Biochemistry is fun, yet unexpectable.
Genetics is trigerring, yet complicated.

The road is long, we're on stony ground...

Jaa ne!

Just Another Story

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim... For the last a couple of days, after that 'motivational aka psycho talk' with kak mar, I felt somewhat different. I learn to forgive. I forgive myself. I forgive my past. And I felt, really, this feeling of somewhat, better, and more calm, deep down inside. People just cannot live with hatred and anger. That will just make life imperfect. I've read mimmi's blog just now, and the Quran verse just simply caught my eyes and touched my heart. Quran is so magical that it could touch people's hearts just everytime. =) curi this from mimmi. hehe...

" Dan janganlah orang-orang yang mempunyai kelebihan dan kelapangan di antara kamu bersumpah bahawa mereka (tidak) akan memberikan (bantuan) kepada kerabat(nya), orang-orang miskin dan orang-orang yang berhijrah di jalan Allah, dan hendaklah mereka MEMAAFKAN dan BERLAPANG DADA. Apakah kamu tidak suka bahawa Allah mengampunimu? Dan Allah Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang."
An-Nur : 22


Yea, berlapang dada. Lower ur blood pressure a lil bit. hehe... Always learn to forgive. Forgive people everytime u are about to go to bed. Some people might say, we can forgive but we can never forget. But I think, that is why we need to remind ourselves, each and everyday, every night before we sleep, we tell ourselves, we forgive them. It will work, eventually =) I believe it will. Everyone's a sinner. How do we know what we did to other people, were never more hideous than what they did to us? We never have a heart that is so pure, so lets just purify it, the best we could =D still have enough time babbling wpun esk ade test genetics. hehe... so, that means, i need to go!
miss this boy soo, very2 much. a pic of him a year ago. (even tho this time entry got nothin to do with this pic. hehe)

Happy Birthday to You

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

I have a book opened in front of me right now but I'm soooo mengantoks that I've decided to write a blog. hee... Yesterday (Nov 3rd) was Syazni's and Syahiran's birthday. Yep, they share the same birthdate! Happy birthday to my sweet little boys =)

Looking at their pics makes me missing them more~~

A kurang sopan gambar of Syahiran(in red),together with Syamil (in white) during my previous bday party ;)


A 2 years old pic, during our siblings-day-out


That's all for today. Daa~